Dear ex-best friend
Sometime ago I started thinking about my life. Especially everything in my past. And I remembered this one person who once was a big part of my life and now is just a memory. I had to get everythin off of my heart so I wrote her a letter, even when I know that she might never see it.
So to share something, difficult but at the same time something wonderful, from my past with my readers I decided to post the letter here. I hope that some of you may realize what your actions can cause to others. So, here you go:
Dear ex-best friend,
I know it has been at least three years since we last talked. The reason I'm writing this now is because I woke up this morning, and while laying on my bed, staring at the ceiling and listening to music, I started thinking back to my life and remembered you.
I remembered how I used to talk to you about everything, how we had sleepovers at your place. We used to stay awake almost all night and have fun. I remember how your dad always came to your room and told us to be quiet but we still laughed out loud. I remember how you introduced me to energy drinks and make up and how you one time did my make up when I didn't know how. We had some good times.
But then I remembered all the reasons why we are not friends anymore. I remember how I used to trust you and tell you things you promised not to tell anyone. I told you about my youtube channel, I wanted to keep it as a secret for a while. You promised you won't tell anyone about it, but you did. Soon everyone knew and they started to make fun of me. I was a good friend and forgave you. But then I told you about my crush on a boy in my class. Again, you promised to keep it as a secret, but soon enough I figured out you had broken your promise and betrayed my trust. that day I realized that I can't trust you anymore and just stopped talking to you. But, that's not all. I remember that there was this boy you had an on-off relationship with. I didn't have anything against you having a boyfriend. The problem was that your boyfriend was one of my bullies and he had come up with a terrible nickname for me and used it always. And you just stood there while he called me names, and sometimes even did it yourself too.
There is only one thing I regret in our friendship. I don't regret getting to know you or spending time with you, because we had fum. but I regret wasting my time on you and not realizing that you never actually were my friend.
I had to write this because I had to get this off of my heart, even when I know you won't probably ever see this. But if you read this, I want you to know that you gave me trust issues for life and drove me somewhere so deep that it soon turned into depression, but I survived and I am now better than ever. So thank you for showing me that I can't trust everybody. Because of you my life is now better. No-one can ever again betray my trust, because it takes months to earn my trust nowadays. And if a person is ready to wait so long for me to tell them secrets, they are not going to betray my trust, so thank you for that.
You were brought in my life for a reason, but you were taken away from it for even better one. You were brought in my life to make it better and taken away because I didn't need you anymore.
Sincerely,
Your ex-friend
So there it is. Now you know some more about my past.
So to share something, difficult but at the same time something wonderful, from my past with my readers I decided to post the letter here. I hope that some of you may realize what your actions can cause to others. So, here you go:
Dear ex-best friend,
I know it has been at least three years since we last talked. The reason I'm writing this now is because I woke up this morning, and while laying on my bed, staring at the ceiling and listening to music, I started thinking back to my life and remembered you.
I remembered how I used to talk to you about everything, how we had sleepovers at your place. We used to stay awake almost all night and have fun. I remember how your dad always came to your room and told us to be quiet but we still laughed out loud. I remember how you introduced me to energy drinks and make up and how you one time did my make up when I didn't know how. We had some good times.
But then I remembered all the reasons why we are not friends anymore. I remember how I used to trust you and tell you things you promised not to tell anyone. I told you about my youtube channel, I wanted to keep it as a secret for a while. You promised you won't tell anyone about it, but you did. Soon everyone knew and they started to make fun of me. I was a good friend and forgave you. But then I told you about my crush on a boy in my class. Again, you promised to keep it as a secret, but soon enough I figured out you had broken your promise and betrayed my trust. that day I realized that I can't trust you anymore and just stopped talking to you. But, that's not all. I remember that there was this boy you had an on-off relationship with. I didn't have anything against you having a boyfriend. The problem was that your boyfriend was one of my bullies and he had come up with a terrible nickname for me and used it always. And you just stood there while he called me names, and sometimes even did it yourself too.
There is only one thing I regret in our friendship. I don't regret getting to know you or spending time with you, because we had fum. but I regret wasting my time on you and not realizing that you never actually were my friend.
I had to write this because I had to get this off of my heart, even when I know you won't probably ever see this. But if you read this, I want you to know that you gave me trust issues for life and drove me somewhere so deep that it soon turned into depression, but I survived and I am now better than ever. So thank you for showing me that I can't trust everybody. Because of you my life is now better. No-one can ever again betray my trust, because it takes months to earn my trust nowadays. And if a person is ready to wait so long for me to tell them secrets, they are not going to betray my trust, so thank you for that.
You were brought in my life for a reason, but you were taken away from it for even better one. You were brought in my life to make it better and taken away because I didn't need you anymore.
Sincerely,
Your ex-friend
So there it is. Now you know some more about my past.
By the way! I'm going to this pride parade and party in my hometown tomorrow, so few days from now, there's going to be a short text and some pictures about my day. Just for your information.
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