Last year was a roller coaster

So, remember when about a year ago I promised to post here more often. Well, that didn't go as planned. In 2017 I posted four, only four, times. Now it's time to ask myself: "What went wrong?" What went wrong was probably all the stressing and trying to survive. Last year was full of fighting against my own body and mind, trying to pass exams when I couldn't concentrate on lessons.
Here's some things that my year consisted of:

• Stress
• Anxiety
• Wondering if I have ADHD while concentrating on something small and insignificant
• Wondering what the heck is wrong with my brain
• Making a lot of new friends
• Making a new best friend and wondering if they really like me
• Having fun with my friends 
• Wanting to come out to my family
• Stressing about coming out to my family
• Coming out to my mom
• Being queerer than I've ever been
• Stressing about getting a partner to school dance

Although this list consists mostly of stressing and being really anxious, last year was the best year of my life so far. It had its good and bad moments. I had fun, I was happy, I was sad, I was angry. Let's just say that last year was quite a roller coaster. In the end I wouldn't change it for anything.

I'm starting this new year with fresh eyes. This year I'm going to have so much fun, have the most amazing school dance ever, have the most amazing 18th birthday ever, and most of all be queer as heck.

So this time I'm not making promises. I'm just saying that I'll try to post more. I have one draft waiting for finishing, and a idea for a three part "series" about figuring myself out and coming out to myself and my loved ones. So, I hope you had an amazing year 2017 and will have even more amazing year 2018.